Monthly Archives: July 2013

Goal crushing!

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171428_153587931362464_100001337742137_279890_7277629_o-copy1Yesterday, I did something I’ve never done before: I ran my first 5k without any walking! Another goal crushed!

I have been choosing the 5k workout on the treadmill and just walking the first 5 minutes to warm-up for a while now, so on Tuesday, I ran the rest of the workout for a total of 38 consecutive minutes of running. Having gotten that close, I knew I was going to have to attempt the full 5k yesterday, so I restarted the workout after my 5 minute warm-up.It was just as I found my running gait that the stream of sunlight was redirected through the windows directly into my face, where it stayed for the first 2 miles of my run. Read the rest of this entry

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Scream

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neil-gaiman-quoteSometimes my life is a real scream…like literally. See, there are three little people in my world, and they have all these feelings that they don’t always know how to interpret, and sometimes, despite the fact that they are excellent communicators for their ages, they just can’t tell me what’s wrong, thus the screaming.

Monday was definitely one of those days when words just weren’t working for anybody and nap time couldn’t get here soon enough. And with everyone feeling so out of control, going to the gym just wasn’t happening. And after a weekend of too many “treats,” I was struggling with feeling depressed and completely out of steam.

It’s amazing to me how just going over my calorie goal one or even two days has the ability to make me feel like a failure. It’s kind of ridiculous. We’re talking about a little extra food here. FOOD! It’s a great part of being human, but it should NOT be this powerful in my life.  Read the rest of this entry

Where do I go from here?

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The view from the start of today’s run.

So this blog feels a little like your house the day after that huge party you planned for months. It was great fun, but now it’s over, you’ve cleaned up, and now you just can’t seem to figure out what to do with all the energy you’d previously spent planning.

Of course, my journey isn’t over. Nor is my grief. I have released Joey, said my big goodbye, but that doesn’t mean I’ve stopped loving him or missing him. I will always love him. I will always miss him. I will always be a different me without him in the world.

But I do feel like it’s time for this phoenix to rise above the fire & ashes and to fly with my own wings. I want to keep writing because that’s a big part of who I am, and I’ll probably still mention Joe from time to time, but you may see some changes around here as I make NEVER BETRAY more mine. Read the rest of this entry